Wednesday, March 25, 2015

#FOODFORTHOUGHT: LORD, I TRUST YOU... ???

How does one trust God? The world may never know... But as Christians, even if we don't understand how, its an inevitable part of our walk with Jesus. Hello Luvies! I briefly want to explore what happens when you finally know your purpose, the Lord shows you what to do, you do it, and nothing is happening.

The above is my life right now. After years of trying to pave my own way and "find myself," the Lord finally showed me my purpose in my non-profit mentoring program, Girls Like Me, Inc. He is showing me how all the gifts and things I am good at are all to fulfill this purpose. So I am finally submitting my purpose and everything to Christ, and immediately he begins to guide my steps. The Lord said have an Interest Meeting instead of a full event, he told me how to promote, and how to reach out, even which materials to have. In my mind, I am saying, "Amen Lord! Your will be done. It's going to work out because you are controlling this. I'm just going to do what you say. This is going to make a big impact. We are going to have an awesome turn out." So I do everything as the Lord led me to do, and guess what, only one awesome young lady showed up. I was grateful for the one but I was confused. I said to the Lord, "Are you sure this is my purpose? I did everything you said and still I failed."

I wanted to get discouraged but I realized something I should have realized a long time ago. We can't measure success by the world's standards. When all your trust is in Jesus, He is leading the way, and you know its not you manipulating it in any way, that means that even your "failures," (or more correctly stated) the things that didn't go as you expected, are ordered by His hand. It all has a greater purpose. You also can't compare your journey to others or even your imagination or vision. You may think something should be a certain way or maybe even the Lord showed you that it would be a certain way. However, you must understand that you have to work up to that point. And if you never reach or surpass what others have done, your imagination, or your vision (if its God-given you will in His due time), you have to trust that what God has done for you was the best for you.

Once I learned what the Lord was trying to show me. I made a decision that I am not going to quit and that NO ONE is going to stop me from pursuing my dreams. Do you know I've faced opposition ever since and in every way possible? At this point, I honestly don't see how the vision God gave me is even going to manifest. But I still trust Him. And I am still going to do everything He ask of me.

Someone is probably whispering while reading this, "You're crazy; that can't be your purpose if it's not working out. Why would the Lord do that? That wouldn't be me! I don't have time to waste trying to follow and listen to a God I don't see." Well, I've been on that side. And I tried to do things my way. And I've had very promising opportunities and success after success. People still look at me and shake their heads because of the places they think my talents could've carried me. But I was never happy. I didn't like or love myself. The industries that I was working in and the "unspoken codes" went against my morals and values that are rooted in Christ. If a door closed, even after a successful run, it NEVER opened back up.

Now that I trust in God and I am trusting Him for my purpose. I love Girls Like Me, Inc! I feel alive when I am mentoring, organizing calendars, talking to people who don't want to talk to me, walking almost 20 blocks to pass out flyers and going door to door. I love buying a bunch of toys and begging other people to buy them too just to give them all away to children in need. Every time I have an event, its rocky all the way up until but it is always a stellar event. And the Lord continuously opens doors for the next project! I love to write and blog about Jesus. I love to share with this generation that there is more to Hip Hop than lyrics and images that degrade and defile us. I love to uplift fashionable young women and men who live for Christ but still dress in a way in which it honors God and it honors their bodies. I feel so FREE! If I had 5 jobs, I would still find ways to incorporate these things in my life.

I say ALL of this to say. Trusting in God gives you so much peace because you drop the load off you and on to Christ. Everyone says, "Elisa, you are so busy." In my mind, I know I'm too busy and I do too much to be normal. But in my spirit, I know I am able to do it and handle it because I know I am trusting in Jesus for His strength and wisdom. Trust God, cross your arms on your chest, close your eyes, lean back on your heels, fall back, and watch Him catch you. Trust, Peace & SMOOCHES XOXO

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