Tuesday, November 3, 2015

Flick of the Wrist

Wherefore I put thee in remembrance that thou stir up the gift of God, which is in thee by the putting on of my hands. (2 Timothy 1:6 KJV)

Hello Gorgeous! You see the title, right? I know but stay with me and let me explain. Everyday, I wake up to my life. The routine: Work, School, Girls Like Me, Church, Family, Nonexistent Me-Time, and everything in between. Just knowing all that I have to do and all that I may have to encounter in a day is sometimes overwhelming. I put all of the pressure and responsibility of my life on myself. While this should be a good thing not to blame others for my problems, the anticipation of all that could go wrong makes me pick myself apart. "I could handle this if I had more free time. I don't understand why this person doesn't like me. Why do I always have to be the one to do it. Why can't I just get this done. I procrastinate too much. They said I'm too sensitive; maybe I am. I shouldn't have said that about that person; it wasn't right. I don't want to be mean but when I'm nice people walk over me. I'm a push over. Why can't I balance and handle all of this. I bit off more than I can chew. I'm just a horrible person."

Before my day has even started, I have tore myself to shreds. I am focusing on each and every negative piece or attribute of my personality. In some strange way, I used these negative thoughts to keep me focused or to keep me grounded. I've realized that reflection is important for growth but you don't want to beat yourself down to a pulp. I have struggled with low self-esteem for years and I am glad I have learned to love myself. I can't let the pressures of life reverse the work that God has done in me.

This morning, as things just started not to go my way and I thought about all I had to do, I just began to beat myself up in my head. I was angry and irritable. And all I could think was, "I don't want to feel this way about myself." I heard the Lord say "Stir yourself up." At that moment I realized, every little thing I don't like about myself or my life, God put it in me and in my life for a reason. Separate, these pieces of me aren't appealing to those who dwell on those individual unpleasant pieces. However, when I gave my life to Christ, He made me whole. He doesn't see my pieces. All He sees is that everything He put in me and in my life is supposed to be used to give Him glory. There is a reason for every attribute, good and bad, that I have. I am not saying this to give you an opportunity to not better yourself and to not become more Christlike. I am saying this to make you understand that some things in your life and in your personality, were put in your life for you to work with and around. Instead of beating yourself up, use your quirks as a stepping stool to push closer to Jesus. To keep my procrastination to a minimum, I have to work as unto the Lord. To not say mean things, I need to edify and uplift people with my words. To not be so mean and passive, I have to have healthy confrontation. To not take things personal, I have to act like Jesus and love people despite what they do or say. To balance my life better, I have to give all of my cares and worries to God.

So all of the pieces of you and your life that are separately horrible, put it all in a bowl, add Jesus, and stir vigorously in the Holy Spirit. Stir your pieces together until you recognize who you are. You are a child of God. While you may be imperfect, you are an heir to the Kingdom of Heaven. Nothing can stop you from who God called you to be and to do. Not even your own negative thinking can change God's mind and plans for you. Dwelling on your negative attributes only hinders you and stops you from progressing. Learn your lessons, but keep living this awesome life.

So look at the flick of your wrist. Are you stirring yourself up fast enough or are you letting the pieces affect your progress? Are you mixing it all well so that the pieces won't separate from Jesus? Stir yourself daily in the spirit and in the Word of God. Jesus will hold all of your pieces together. Flick of Da Wrist. SMOOCHES XOXO

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